The Ponderings of a Big Foot Buddha

2003-06-21 - 9:43 p.m.

Jerky, Malamute & Me

Boy four entries in my diary today. Feeling restless and a bit bored I guess. That’s pretty unusual for me.

Well my jerky is done and it’s as yummy as expected, but then I’ve only made the stuff a few hundred times so I’m pretty good at it by now. I’m spending the evening alone with our malamute tonight. Our son is off at a friend’s for the day & a sleepover and my wife is off at her ex-boyfriend’s birthday party. Yes it’s OK we have a good relationship we are doing fine and we trust each other. There is nothing wrong with her ex either. He’s a great guy I met him while they were still together and once he got over the shock of us getting married they started talking again.

I made a big mistake tonight though. Sitting here typing I gave our dog some jerky, nothing new there she doesn’t get lots but she gets a bit as a treat. Well the weirdest thing tonight apparently I wasn’t giving here enough. She started talking to me (she does that a lot anyhow). So I howled & woo’ed back to her & we chatted some more, then I got up to let her out. She didn’t want out, she skipped the back door and ran up to the kitchen and disappeared around the corner. I figured she was out of water maybe since the jerky is a bit peppery (just the way I like it). Nope she wasn’t out of water; she was sitting on the floor in front of the dehydrator looking at me over her shoulder.

I figured since I was there anyhow I’d grab a couple more sticks and head back down stairs to my office. Sure enough she stuck right to me all the way down and waited patiently until I gave her a wee taste again as a treat. That was fine until five or ten minutes after I finished the last of the jerky I brought down. She starts chatting at me again, I woowoo back to her and then she runs in circles and speeds off upstairs again. I follow her up and there she is parked in front of the dehydrator staring at it again.

Good thing she can’t open that sucker herself I’d be out a batch of jerky for sure tonight.

Oh ya that birthday party my wife went to. I was invited as well her ex has met me and his friends have heard about me and seem to want to meet me sometime. I have no problems with any of them and I’m not shy or worried about meeting anyone there. But I’m pretty antisocial most of the time and spending a day and an evening with a bunch of strangers has no appeal to me at all if it’s not in my own house. Weird huh? I’m ok with tons of my wife’s work friends and their spouses and kids showing up here and enjoying playing host. But to have to go to someone else’s place and be a guest in a room full of strangers annoys the heck out of me. Not sure why that is or maybe the annoyed antisocial feeling is a cover up for feeling insecure and out of place? Not 100% sure of the right answer for this question.

It’s strange wondering if maybe I’m a bit insecure deep down. I’m one of those oh so annoying people that never get flustered, am completely at ease with my abilities and myself, am never stuck for an answer in any situation and rarely get caught off guard. I know that I must seem to be quite arrogant to many people. (/sarcasm on)But in my case that’s rightfully so (/sarcasm off)

Think it’s time to go watch some comedians on TV and get some more jerky.

Take care all!

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